Hero :)

A new year

2011-12-31T04:33:00.000-08:00

2012 :)

A new year,
A new beginning

Let 2012 be awesome, great and everything good :)

Work's starting, giving tuition soon, learning driving and many more wow I can't wait!

But most importantly, I just want to get good A level results and to have stronger and better relationships with others, need to make new friends sometimes I feel really friendless..

Haha still the same, I love my family, Barry and Py. <3

June, halfway there

2011-06-01T22:31:00.000-07:00

Hello bloggie.
Haha decided to post something here i'm afraid my dear diary will hate me for neglecting her.
Anw, time really flies uh?
It's June, omgosh.
So, i'm kinda done with spa,napha,polo,lg,3/4 of my ac life.
And now what's left is study study study all the way to A lvls and get that AAAAAAA grade.
I've always wanted to update this space at least once every holiday but i guess not this time, will be back after A's and who knows maybe I will be in the 'omg I really wanna blog mood' haha but not now for sure.

May I have the faith and energy and motivation and luck and what not to carry on till A's. I need hope. The best is yet to be :)

I don't have many friends or close ones to walk this journey with me but still, I love Barry<3, Family, Clique(PY,Joy,Mogu,Joce), Chey/Hm/Zy, Class clique(Ade,Jamie,Lynn,Mich,Cherie), Ly, Rena.
May we last forever :)

New year's coming

2010-12-29T09:03:00.000-08:00

There's really alot alot alot of things I wanna say, like about 2010 and what I wish for 2011 but I'm just lazy to type them here. If I'm in the mood I will write but till then, let's all just be happy :)

I'll wait and see, like you said.

To me, love is between 2 people only, just honest and true love, you love me, I love you, no other person can get involve, no other influence, cause love will get destroy if that's the case, then it's not love to me anymore. So nothing, no regrets, just love. Yeah I'm just like that. I love you.

Just a dream

2010-12-14T10:03:00.000-08:00

I was thinking about you
Thinking about me
Thinking about us
What we gonna be
Open my eyes
It was only just a dream
So I travel back
Down that road
Will you come back
No one knows
I realize
It was only just a dream

Words vs Actions

2010-11-28T23:59:00.000-08:00

Grr I like the quote about the cement thingy but I can't find it anymore :(
Nehmind, here's another quote hehe
"It''s amazing. Some people, they just say these small little things, one sentence and it changed the way you feel about them in an instant. Small little words that can hurt you so much or make you fall deeply in love forever. It changes everthing, nothing between you is ever really the same again, even if they don't knowit, it still happens."
But then they say it's action that matters not words such an irony rightzzz. When I read the quote I was like wtf that just happened to me okay a little vulgar here hehe so anyways I guess both words and actions do matter to me. I am a feel person hahaha.

Littlest Things

2010-11-28T23:31:00.001-08:00

Sometimes I wish we could just pretend, even if only for one weekend,
so come on, tell me,
is this the end?

I swear I'll be back :)

Sugar

2010-10-14T04:52:00.000-07:00

Okiezzzz so promo's over and next 3 weeks will be really hectic again with intensive OP preparation and trainings after trainings. I'm really scared about OP omg bless me please.

I seriously hate typing and backspacing and typing and backspacing (I've done it like a million times). I mean, blogs are dangerous, people will read (lucky I don't think I have any followers) and they will start judging and I don't like that (that's why I don't blog frequently) hehe I still prefer and love my diary she's my bestfriend I can tell her everything ^^

Anw, htht with py and joce at subway was really.. idk, it just brought back many memories. Haha. Miss my clique. And friends. And you.

It's easy, just smile, laugh and stop thinking.

2010-09-18T02:05:00.000-07:00

I make a promise to myself. To stop torturing myself by seeing those photos, those blogs, those texts/calls. To stop thinking. To stop being paranoid. Instead, to trust. Trust the promises. Trust love. Trust our future.

So now I'm finally at peace with and by myself. Happy :)

From zero to hero

2010-09-10T05:06:00.000-07:00

'Sometimes people have to cry out all the tears in order to make room for a heart full of smiles.'

I used to think that crying's a sign of weakness and I refused to cry no matter what. I wanted to act strong. But now I realize that crying's really good, at first you can't talk properly, you can't breathe, your heart beats at an abnormal speed. But when it all ends, you take a deep breath and you feel better, or at least I feel stronger, I can breathe again and that tiny little hope crawls back telling me that things may be alright afterall. I like that moment, I need more of those moments.

Had been really long since I sat down and share my thoughts with my mom, and I guess I broke down and cried like a baby to her. I've never ever been hurt in this way, 've never ever experience heartache like that, 've never ever love someone so much, 've never ever hold on to someone so tightly, 've never ever fight for someone so hard, 've never ever wanted someone to stay so badly. Yeah I don't know what to do. I will stay strong or at least continue acting strong :)

No more lies please, no more lies. I don't know how much more can I take. I'm putting all my trust, faith and hope in this one last chance.

Zero

2010-08-14T22:47:00.000-07:00

Don't waste your time regretting all your wrongs. Know that in the end, you'll get what your heart longs. Try not to risk it all; don't stumble; don't fall. Take the time to read the writings on the wall. Hold your head high; don't be afraid to say goodbye. Stay true and be you. Do everything there is to do. Live life to the fullest and never look back. There is a reason for the future and a reason for the past. Love till it hurts; laugh till you cry. Be happy for what you've done. Be happy for what you've overcome. And for most of all, be proud of what you've become.

I am so very very freaking stress. I hate school. There's so many things to be done. Seriously can't wait for holidays to start I need a break please. I still owe Joce her blogpost will post when I can upload photos. oh man I need a hug and some encouragement.

Maybe

2010-08-06T07:30:00.000-07:00

We're so good at fooling people. We're great at acting like we're okay, that we haven't a single worry in the world. We have a smile that we've practiced over and over.. so many times that we don't even remember what our real smile looks like. Sometime I wonder if we've fooled ourselves, too.

But then, maybe we're wrong.

Faint

2010-07-25T05:24:00.000-07:00

Sick. Fever's killing me. But it's funny how much I wanna cry. Right now.

Carry on

2010-07-19T04:48:00.000-07:00

I read this tumblr post, and I can't help crying like mad alone at home in front of my phone's screen.

I miss my friends. Especially Joy Chow :( Where are you guys?

Happier

2010-07-11T09:13:00.000-07:00

Happiness is really a decision.

I am a thinker, an emotional wreak, I over-analyse things and sometimes make a big fuss out of something so small and insignificant. Well, maybe, just maybe, I'm trying to look for something's that's not even there at the first place. But then, I made a decision. I decided to be happy. Cause it's really not worth it torturing myself over something like that. So now i'm forcing myself to get rid of all the negative shit and to stop thinking, stop thinking about it. If I try hard enough, I may really forget all about it. I'm not supposed to be losing sleep over it. Yeah it's really tough but who can I blame? My mistake. Sometimes ignorance is really bliss. I rather not know a single thing than to suffer now alone. If only you knew..

Fuck negative shit.

That's why I love my blog cause it's the only place I can write like this and.. maybe swear.

"A single lie discovered is enough to create a contagious doubt over every other truth expressed." Hmmm.

Stronger

2010-07-07T04:52:00.000-07:00

I may be emotional, but at least i'm not weak. It takes a strong individual to have the courage to cry.

Back someday

2010-07-03T05:07:00.000-07:00

"You know that feeling? That feeling when you just want the right thing to fall into the right place, not only because it's right, but because it will mean that such a thing is still possible. I want to believe in that."

After so long, so many pointless roundabouts, I still ended back here. It has been so long since I'm last here, documenting down every single detail of my life, down to the smallest bits and pieces. Well, I guess I'm pretty much afraid of how people will judge me by just reading, and strip me naked down to the bones. But who can say better?

6 months into 2010 and haha I can conclude I'm socially awkward. Haha. I didn't make much new friends perhaps only my og, classmates, cca. Or maybe, I just don't bother. Cause what's the point of making so many friends but in the end you're just left alone and at that very moment when you need someone but no one's there, you then realise how pathetic and lonely you really are. So again, what for? I'm contented with the few close ones I have *loves*

Haha. I will be back again.

2010-03-20T22:38:00.000-07:00

I WANT HOLIDAYS TO LAST LONGER!!!
So much to do, so little time.

Read between the lines

2010-03-06T21:55:00.000-08:00

To hold on or to let go.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PY!

2010-01-18T05:25:00.000-08:00

(Just take the date of this post to be 17th Jan 2010 yeah)
HAHA HAPPY BIRTHDAY PY!!! Love you so much! Everthing's in the letter, so I shall let pictures do the talking! 17 lovely pictures for you! Have a sweet 17! :D

Results.

2010-01-13T21:45:00.000-08:00

10-4=6
Quite disapointed with my results but aye just have ta accept it.
Haha choosing Jc's totally killing me. Gosh. So it's Ac science, Ac arts, then Pj science Pj arts.
Should be.

Need a hug.

OMG!!!

2010-01-09T20:38:00.000-08:00

Tmr's the day!!!

First wish for 2010: Let us (me/joy/py/joce/mogu) all get 8 points and below and enter NJC!
Oh man, please please please.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

2010-01-03T07:02:00.000-08:00

WOW IT'S A NEW YEAR!!!:D:D:D

HAHA I seriously hope 2010 will be a great and meaningful year for me! May everything goes smoothly! Everybody also happy!:D HAHA YAY 2010 I'M GONNA BE 17 SOON WHEEEEE!!! {:

Off to genting/Kl, will be back on 7th, byeeeeee (:

Love you joychow!

2009-12-16T08:54:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOYCHOW HEE WO AI NI I LOVVVVEEEE YOOOUUU :D:D:D:D:D Shall not say much here, peektures speak a thousand words (: Sixteen photos for your sixteen birthday!!! Eh wait, blogger's date is wrong, it should be 17thDec2009 (:

loooooook I cant see

2009-12-16T07:37:00.000-08:00

You know, i'm afraid, so afraid of what lies ahead, of my future.

):

2009-12-13T04:24:00.000-08:00

I'm sick. And when i'm sick, i'm so sadddddd ):

It's my life

2009-12-07T06:40:00.000-08:00

Bon Jovi-It's my life

This ain't a song for the broken-hearted
No silent prayer for the faith-departed
I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice
When I shout it out loud

It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just wanna live while I'm alive
It's my life

This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting harder make no mistake
Luck ain't even lucky
Got to make your own breaks

It's my life
And it's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life

Better stand tall when they're calling you out
Don't bend, don't break, hell, don't back down

It's my life
And it's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive

It's my life
And it's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life

Currently addicted to this song. Kinda describe how I am feeling right now. I just want to live a happy life, in my own way.

2009-11-24T09:51:00.000-08:00

Photos!!! Haha i'm only posting some of my favourites! Rest's up at fb i think.

Prom's over.

Gosh i'm feeling rather nostalgic.

Can I finally cry now?

Yeah I officially graduated from Nan Hua High School.

And from now on, it's gonna be 'Hey there, I was from Nanhua high.'

And maybe when we meet in the future, it's will be 'Hey how's life? Have been long since we last met!' instead of 'Hey omg I haven't study for o's how!'

It's weird, don't you think so?

Not seeing those familiar faces that you've been seeing everyday.

Knowing that we will part, sooner or later, makes me really... helpless.

Yeah I know I can't be greedy, but I really wish that we can stay in contact forever.

I will miss everybody.

I will miss you.

Hehehe

2009-11-19T23:13:00.000-08:00

O's over!!! Like finally!!! Haha will be updating soon. Next up's prom. Then job hunt. Wheeeeeee byebye!

Hello to goodbye

2009-10-10T07:18:00.000-07:00

09/10/09
That's the last day of school.
Last day of my secondary school life.
I'm feeling rather nostalgic now.
There's many memories etched in my mind, no matter happy or sad i'm gonna remember them. Ytd marks the end of everything, and i'm glad to say I don't dislike them anymore. Yes, that's closure I guess. There's still many misunderstandings, many questions, many yearnings. But i'm gonna let go and put an end to everything. I don't want my 4 years to end with a bad note. So, i'm sorry if i've ever hurt you, but there's really nothing left to fight anymore (:

All this while i'm like, 2 more years and i'm out of this shit, 1 more year till i graduate, 3 more months till i get my freedom. Damn, I can't believe that I'm actually missing school now. Yeah i'm miss NanHuaHighSchool. I miss 403. I miss my classroom. I miss my teachers. I miss the canteen. I miss the drinks stall uncle. I miss skipping lessons. I miss going to toilet. I miss playing bridge. I miss playing basketball. I miss taking photos. I miss p.e lessons. I miss being late for school. I miss the laughter. I miss the tears. I miss everything.

But i especially miss those who now have a special place in my heart. Throughout this 4 years, people come and go. Some friends left, some friends stayed, some leave footprints in your heart. Then it's left with the few that went through all the ups and downs with you and never gave up. They're called good friends, best friends.
Thankyou Joy, Peiying, Jocelyn, Yijun. Thanks for everything you've done for me. I love you guys alot, i'm really glad that we're a happy clique now, must stay in contact forever and be happy yeah? Now it's the last lap left, let's work hard tgt and enter the same jc! O's will be over soon (: Oh and nicole dearest if you're reading this, i'm suddenly missing you alot!

Gotta smile

2009-09-25T23:12:00.000-07:00

Prelims are finally over! :D
Now I have exactly 30 days to O's.
I don't know how am I gonna survive it, but i will continue to work hard.
I can make it, I can do it :D

Yeah it hurts, but we still have to move on. Be strong (:
Unless my heart stops, I'm not gonna give up.

Officially HIATUS.

Jiayou!!

2009-09-11T22:51:00.000-07:00

I'm sick of studying already, shit.
I haven't touch my history omg it's always like that for history. Okay at least i'm done with chem and phy :D
O level's coming damn fast, which means it's gonna end real soon too.
2 more months and we'll get back our freedom.
Jiayou for Prelims and O's!!!

Anw, happy 7 month anni! I love you.

Be happy

2009-08-28T21:33:00.000-07:00

HAHA school has been fun this week! 403's going crazy with the high truancy rate wheee :D Haha I like studying at home then going school the next day to play and clear doubts, quite productive! No mood to study in school anyway, kinda sick of studying already opps :/ Haha nevertheless, STUDY HARD FOR PRELIMS EVERYONE! :D

Oh yes, bro's flying to Taiwan later, oh man I will miss you alot ):

Love you guys! :D

Closure

2009-08-19T05:24:00.000-07:00

I smile, because I don't know what's going on.

All I need is closure, and then I will move on.
Life's about being happy too.

Friends or foes

2009-08-15T19:02:00.000-07:00

Friendship.

I'm writing this post for closure, for something to mark the end of this chapter. I've been feeling too much, and I guess I have to express it out if not I will just burst someday, but after this post there won't be any feelings left.

Everything has happened too fast. To me, you're one of my most trusted friend, so I make sure I'm always there for you whenever you needed me, to give you all the support I can. I refused to believe that you will treat me like that, 3 years plus of friendship, it can't be. Sent you the first msg, hoping that things will be alright, sent you the second msg, hoping that our friendship will see us through, sent you the third msg, hoping that you would at least give me a reply. You wanted to end this, I still can't believe, I didn't know what to do. It's gonna be okay in school, but when you guys changed our places without even infoming us, I know how stupid we are to still trust our friendship will be strong enough to overcome everything. The way Py and I were ignored by you guys, really scares me up till now. Heard many nasty things about what you said about me, I thought you only wanted clique's support. I decided to just take it and shut up, cause i believed that though our friendship may end, but still you will never ever betray me like that, I trusted you. Then it was not only clique, more people started to bitch about it. What got me down real hard is that you actually used those that you had disliked and bitched about most to help you achieve what you want, for them to believe that I was the one at fault and to support you, for 'explaining' to everyone, except to us. I can't believe that's you. It really got me wondering what am I doing all this while, who am I actually facing? I've never ever done a single thing you said, I don't value my friends by how rich their family are, and about the xiao bai lian thing, I can only say I respect my friends' parents. I've never imagined that you will one day betray me like that. But still I choose to take it and shut up, because I still have a slight hope that we can still remain as friends. I admit i'm such a weakling, crying almost everyday, each time I know something new that you said, I can't help but hide some place and cry. I've been taking all the shit you said, cause I don't have any energy left in defending myself, i'm too tired of all these. I thought we're in a war, and both sides are bleeding. But I finally realised that i'm the only one who's bleeding, you seem so much happier that I'm caught up by this bitching. It then make me realised how stupid I am, you've already let go, I'm the one who can't give up on you and let go. It was really a lesson learned the hard way, a huge wake up call.

Sorry Py, i'm really guilty that I've gotten you into this. I can't describe how grateful I am to you, thanks for believing in me.
Sorry Joy, for keep getting sad and crying and needing you to cheer me up. At first, I don't understand why you can't understand how sad I am, it's like one of my best friend had betrayed me of course I am very sad. Who will be happy when you're accused with things you've never done? I feel so helpless. But after ytd's quarrel with you, I can finally understand why, like yeah now looking back, I don't understand why was I so sad too, why do i keep crying over it, why do I even freaking bother about those who no longer make up part of my life, those who can't wait to see me die, those who I don't care anymore. Don't worry darling, I've xiang tong alot. I will adopt your heck care attitude from now! I promise you I won't be sad over those stupid things anymore.

They say humans do forgive, but we don't forget. I've choose not to forgive nor forget, cause I don't even want to remember. Nothing to forget, nothing to remember in the first place, cause it's really not worth it. Don't have to act strong anymore, cause I won't even mention you guys again, will keep those sad stuff away from my memory. I would rather choose happiness.

I've finally moved on.

Over you

2009-08-05T04:22:00.000-07:00

You gotta find happiness yourself, life is what you want it to be (:
I believe in what comes around goes around, and that the truth will surface sooner or later, it will get back to you. So, I'm not holding on anymore, i'm letting go (: Thanks for those who truly love me, I love you luotai and hubby <3

Sometimes we just have to learn to let go, and come back even stronger.

Only one way

2009-07-20T05:25:00.000-07:00

There's only a few things in my mind right now
1. O LEVELS
2. STUDY
3. Cherish my nanhua time left with my friends.

I love Luotai and Hubby like crazy. Gan nu er/gan nu xu too! Jiayou and chiong tgt yeah? For our future <3

easy easy

2009-06-27T23:14:00.000-07:00

I love the holidays.
I revised and studied, slightly accomplished. I shopped like crazy, bought alot YAY love retail therapy. I went out of singapore(although it's only malaysia but yeah you get what I mean), relaxed and feel fresh. Spent some quality time with my family and darling friends(love you all like crazy)!! Happy days (:

But sadly, there's school tml, which means facing stupid nanhua again ohman. O's coming real soon, everybody jiayou. Wish me luck (:

Don't speak

2009-06-21T08:00:00.000-07:00

I AM DAMN FREAK OUT AFTER WATCHING DRAG ME TO HELL.
I. AM. SCARED.
Haha anw have not been touching the com for quite long alr yay I like it, actually won't be even touching it now if not for my ipod. I think i'm quite stress that I've not really progress much in my studies but everything will be fine yah? At least I'm done with my maths revision I hope so. Joy/Py/Shin/mj pigs all jiayou miss you all!!!
Okay so I'm going to malaysia for the next two days to shop haha k i'm off to sleep byebye.
YAY notice my (again) shorter fringe!! I went to trim it myself, it's kinda fun, and nicer HAHAHA and I like the photo below! I think I look different maybe fatter :D
Everybody's changing, some for the better, some for the worst. I've matured alot and changed for the much better. I'm glad I had. You're changed alot too, sadly for the worst. Sometimes I don't even think I know you anymore, stop taking it for granted, don't regret it one day.

Make it back to dawn

2009-06-08T03:33:00.000-07:00

I'm afraid of the future, like yeah really very very afraid. Can I really make it and achieve what i want?

I think I need you

Royal flush

2009-06-01T00:37:00.000-07:00

You stink, seriously.
Hate those nightmares
Hate that there's nothing I could do to save myself in them even more.

Anw, i snipped off my fringe, sick of having the long side fringe(thanks hairdresser you're the best I swear :D). HAHA don't worry it's not bangs, although I may get my bangs after prom or what it's kinda cool. It's just short fringe haha I like my new hair k that's the point.

Lucky it's you

2009-05-23T23:11:00.000-07:00

Hey see, I just wanna live life peacefully for the pathetic 5 months that I have in skl so yeah, just freaking fuck off and stop targeting on me mind you. I know there's something in your blood that just wanna get me but please let me remind you, if you're gonna make things difficult, I won't let you off easily either. So just get a life and wake up your idea.

Okay so I'm not gonna blog about how f. up life is in school because of that freak I shall blog about the nice things haha. Anw thankyou girlfriend for cheering me up you're right just heck her and give her back twice of what she gave us, she needs to suffer too. Played bball with the girls, hee sorry joy, one day I will be able to help you I promise I will train haha you pro 1 vs 3 :D Anw ytd's damn fun in the mrt, lets play the 'see who can don't laugh the longest' game again k! HAHAHA. Oh and I think my knee's damn gross I hate the pus yucks :/

HAHA and I like to go to my pigs' houses!! Love going to girlfriend's, Joy's, Luotai's, shin's house hehe shin I suddenly feel like going your house and see your brother leh!! Hahaha anw darling you haven't cook noodles for me oh man I wanna go your house hee. Girlfriend when are we going your ahma there!! And rena I miss you when is harry potter showing lets go on a date haha! I love the after exam period but gotta hiong and pia once June starts, jiayou pigs we must do it, we can do it together :D Love you all :D

Anw, ve'been addicted to this song for quite awhile, it kinda describe how I'm feeling now, Lucky by Jason Mraz and Colbie Caillat.

Do you hear me, I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel you whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I wait for you I promise you, I will

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music, feel the air
I put a flower in your hair

And though the breeze is through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keep spinning round
You hold me right here right now

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

You're yes then you're no

2009-05-16T01:19:00.000-07:00

Peektures peektures peektures!!!

HELLO WORLD, MIDYEARS' FINALLY OVER!!! :D
Haha not much of a difference to me, have been slacking my ass off after paper 2s HAHAHA. Anw went to watch 17 again, I like the Zac's friend he's seriously a joker, had fun laughing!! Then B&J(yay i love icecream:D) talk talk slack slack then girlfriend went home for dinner and we went pizzahut and I bought my favourite donuts yay omg I feel fat now!! Haha i love movies!!! Watched a few this 2 weeks like taken, horsemen, 17 again i cant really rmb haha don't you think nc16 shows are really nicer!? I WANNA WATCH MORE MOVIES!!!

Okay since midyears' over, I'm not gonna touch those books till June hols HAHA gonna play play slack slack stone stone omg love it. I can't wait for park hop, sentosa, science centre, wildwildwet(!!!), movie marathon, kbox, shop-till-you-drop, mahjong, stayover, house-visiting(HAHA come my house!), makeover, dates omg yay HAHA. Oh yeah, I must continue with my work out schedule and train I can feel the fats forming in my body alr oh man I wanna run (girlfriend hurry tell me when you can), and I need to exercise and stretch, bones getting hard alr haha train train wheeeeeee!

Oh yes(hurry see this py!!), I support my strawberry shortcake's hubby - Showluozhixiang!!! You rock and will forever be the best in PY's heart okay she really love you alot hahaha! Seriously hope that Dcup, 2 other bitches, Tifanny/fanny(?) can just freak off I hate people who make use of others to become popular like wth? Just get a life alright?

Oh man btw I'm totally addicted to Katy Perry's Hot and Cold!

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes
Yeah, you PMS like a bitch
I would know

And you always think
Always speak cryptically
I should know
That you're no good for me

Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

You, you don't really wanna stay, no
You, but you don't really wanna go, oh

Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

We used to be just like twins, so in sync
The same energy now's a dead battery
Used to laugh 'bout nothing
Now you're plain boring
I should know
That you're not gonna change

Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

You, you don't really wanna stay, no
You, but you don't really wanna go, oh

You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

Someone call the doctor
Got a case of a love bipolar
Stuck on a rollercoaster
Can't get off this ride

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes

Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

You, you don't really wanna stay, no
You, but you don't really wanna go, oh

You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down, down, down, down

:D Love all my friends (esp MJ/PY/SY/JOY/ZY/PJ/HM/RENA) a million :D

Take a bow

2009-05-14T00:53:00.000-07:00

There are just too many saints-wannabe in my school oh man this is kinda pathetic.

It's not easy loving me

2009-05-07T23:25:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I still wonder, if there's any hope that we can return to the past, when everything's simpler and we were all happy and innocent. I really don't know, but the one thing I know is that I don't ever wanna lose you.

Lol, anw I don't mean anything just 'you gan er fa' yah. I'm not emo or what dont worry loves :D HAHA I think I really have a very emo blog like what that 3 pigs say ohmy I'm not emo I just blog when I'm feeling haha I shall try to have a happier post next time :D

HAHA shit i'm totally having an after-exam-mood howw I didn't touch my books after my history papers till now. Thurs- out with darling, Fri- slack then gf's house, Sat- Vivo/town, Sun- Tiong. Someone please tell me to study ask me to study force me to study give me the motivation to study alright? I don't wanna flunk my paper 1s pleaseeeee. Oh yah and huimin sent me a happy mother's day message damn cute haha thanks daughter I didn't expect that, love you :D

Imma knocking on heaven's door.

Falling for you

2009-04-30T04:18:00.000-07:00

Goodluck for MYES loves (: 15th and we will get back our freedom.

Anw, 've been asking myself this question again and again and again, think i've finally thought it through. Sorted it out myself, so yeah, clearer now (: I think i'm just gonna love them and ignore all other stuff, so i won't hurt anymore. Humans, tgt with words, are assholes HAHA. Careful not to show my emotions anymore, cause I realised how dangerous it can be. Won't ever show what I'm really really really feeling from now, except for them. Yah, that's all. Back after myes.

I've finally found the nerve to confess that it's you. Hahaha this is getting so damn wrong man, i am so confused.

IHY.

2009-04-22T22:11:00.000-07:00

Why do bad people always survive but good ones don't? That's why I hate this world, everything's unfair. So, why should we still be good?

I HATE THAT LOY SLUT. I HATE HER I HATE HER I HATE HER. Okay fine in case you don't know, it's alr the 21st century now. You think you're still in your young days when pulling students hair, calling them names, being unreasonable, making students cry, making holes in their skirts and SAYING THAT THEY ARE SLUTS AND VAINPOTS IS STILL IN? THOSE DAYS WHEN TEACHERS RULE OVER EVERYTHING ESPECIALLY STUDENTS? And you effing say 403's girls are slut. Being a 403 girl, I seriously don't think we deserve the terms 'sluts' and 'vainpots'. You don't fit to be a teacher you don't even fit to talk to us. 'Liling tml you better be careful I think she will come gl us again'- Joce. 403 girls becareful tml!!! Yes right, I'm not in skl today so actually I shouldnt be feeling so angry, but I can't help it. I really used to like school y'know, but I'm sorry to say that I hate school, now. And loy y'know something? Respect has to be earned, not forced upon.

Crush

2009-04-19T05:20:00.000-07:00

School again tomorrow, should I be happy or not?
HAHA read shin's blog then rmbed abt my crush on _ when I'm small(okay maybe not) for 2 years plus quite funny actually. But yah glad that we're friends now I still rmb the valentine's day cards!! HAHA :D

Anw, it's just so hard sometimes.
Really sick of all the lies.

And hey ass, I am very very offended by the 'apart from showing off your alter ego' part. That's insulting, get it? Don't ever show your face in front of mine cause I've got my eyes on you whoever who said that fucking rude statement to my batch, all the sec4s. You have no rights to be that rude.

GREAT POST

2009-04-18T03:08:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was great (:
My last sports day in nanhua was the best I've ever had.
Was really happy ytd, havent been feeling like that in a long time.

So many things I wanna blog about, am feeling so... emotional about many things that happened recently esp ytd. Had a great laugh and so much fun. Highing in skl, 403's lunch, 201's dinner, vonz's running, joy's champs(love necklace hee love you), dissing ___, truth or dare, cam-whoring, catching up, nice food, nice talks with py, holding hands/shouting/singing/running/dancing in the night with gf (despite feeling real scared that someone would just pop out suddenly and robbed us, really damn ulu near the lan shop and outside the stadium at night), goodnight call with joy. Everything was great. Will elaborate if I have the time (:
There's so many things coming up, but so little time. MYES revision(have to start and finish), Phy o'lvl spa(!!!), English essay test, Amaths test, Emaths test, Bio test, 2.4 km run(!), Speech day, Daddy's birthday(L:D), Napha(!), start of MYES(!!!), Guowei's bday, Comlink's 10 yr ani(L), Girlfriend's birthday(L), Mother's day(L:D), end of MYES. Seriously, I don't know whether I can cope with the time ahead till myes. I hope I can do it, I will do it, I must do it! Will celebrate after MYES. Jiayou gf, py, sy, joy love you all.

Neways, I seriously cannot believe this. Can't I even effing graduate properly after all this shit in nanhua!? It's MINE graduation, um nah, OUR graduation in fact, damn you.

I LOVE EDISON

2009-04-11T23:53:00.000-07:00

LOVE EDISON. LOVE EDISON. LOVE EDISON.
So what about the scandal? I think he's hotter after it. (L)
Hell yeah you should just shup up if you don't like him. Don't you freaking make mistakes too?
If you don't, you arent a human and if you arent a human, please just leave us alone. tyvm.
Love nc16 to the max hahaha esp with the 3 pigs!

Seriously i'm kinda glad,
I've always wanted it back and yes am getting it back, soon.
So yeah, player won. Whooo. Love player.
Really happy I figured it out.
Played, playing, a player's game.
It's just a game, love this game.
You did nothing wrong, they did. (the sniper)

Anw damn it there's school tml, don't feel like going at all. :/ School sucks lol hate it nanhua should just die. Super stress ): Should be studying but hell, no study mood. I want to maintain single digit!!! Crapshit leh studying's driving me crazy. Like what shin said, I need some life man. Oh, there's 2.4 too! And maybe baked rice!!(:D) Off to drink, cya.

Happy 2 mths anniversary ily brotheeer. HAHA

To leave the rest of the world behind

2009-04-06T02:42:00.001-07:00

Now that you've gotten what you wanted,
You don't want it anymore.

Have not been acting normal nowadays, feeling damn bad. Like I can be happy at a moment but sad at the next, emotional freak. Seriously,
What's wrong with nanhua?
What's wrong with everybody?
What's wrong with the world?

Okay fine perhaps i'm weird, I don't know. All this that's happening just makes me think alot. But yeah, 6 more months to graduation we just have to endure.

It's not about hating school, it's more of a disapointment now.

They are what I go to school for, love them to bits and pieces.

I love HIRO

2009-04-05T00:55:00.001-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HIRO!!! (5th april)
HAHA loved you since 140308 (seeee i still rmb the date), hee still loving you!
Rmbed skyoflove, cleared my contacts again, leaving only those whom I think is worth it. Lol I like to clear contacts so yah, the no. of contacts I have in my msn/phone is quite pathetic, but I don't really care. Policy of isolation and am having a low profile, like it that way. Was super crazily in love with Hiro last time and yes I think the craze is coming back HAHA which is kinda good. Read through my blog posts and memories came flooding back, again.

Hiro, are you happy?
Like you, I was once happy.

Should've said no

2009-03-30T02:44:00.000-07:00

I miss my brother alotalotalot. <3

Girlfriendlove: Endure endure endure I know it's kinda shity now, will treat you to Jolly Shandy on the 21st I promise :D
DeardearJoy: Hey I wanna see you happy, not like that, you know what I mean. Forever with you.
Leeshin&StrawberryShortcake: HEYAAAA I WANNA WATCH THAT SHOW LIKE CRAZY!!!!!
Heeeee love ya all <3

Hate is a strong word, but I really really don't like you.
Hate nanhua, totally screwed. Damn it, I seriously hate nanhua sososo much(due to the new effing unreasonable rules). I DREAD SCHOOL.

You know what I mean

2009-03-21T03:11:00.000-07:00

Thankyou Chng (:
For everything, you know what I mean hahaha.

Crapshit.

Love you girlfriend,shin,py <3
Get well soon Joy <3

Cry it out, laugh it off, then let it go {:

Why ya have to be so damn clever

2009-03-10T02:52:00.000-07:00

I have so many things I wanna say but k I shall keep my cool (favourite motto currently yo). Anw, was kinda crazy this few days, and yes I admit I have been swearing(fuck) a little too much lately, but you can't blame me!!! Too much adrenaline secreted(which means I'm actually kinda stressed out) I can't think properly, so blame it on the hormones instead! And netball's match this friday, jiayou girls you can do it especially brotheeer/deardear and Siying-li! Biatches go all the way, will be supporting you guys and brother I really love you alot dont doubt my love for you and to Siying-li, to hell with him yay we rock!!!

And hey I really don't want it anymore, you can have all you want I don't care!

Biatched abt _____ with girlfriend ytd then i got so pissed then headache then I decided to skip school. I needa keep my cool keep my cool keep my cool! Get a life seriously you need to get a life. I'm locking my blog pretty soon, still deciding who to invite haha!

2009-03-01T00:07:00.000-08:00

"Don't matter, not anymore right?"
"Yeah, not anymore. I gave up hope. I lost the touch again"
Hey thanks you know I love you, but I just gave up hoping. Enough.

Loveeee;

2009-02-14T07:56:00.000-08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

To love somebody,

2009-02-09T05:49:00.000-08:00

Although everything seems to be going in the wrong direction again, but i think we'll be fine. Yes, I believe we will turn out fine.

I need you like how much I need a hug right now. Joy, whereeeee areeeee yoooooou.

): It's always like that. I don't have what it takes to hold on and I really feel like leaving now. Just shut up and get a life.

You give love a bad name;

2009-02-02T00:44:00.000-08:00

Hello, haha I deleted more than half of my post cause I realize I really should'nt trust blogger that much. Neways, here goes the behind part of my post.

Yes I admit I had made a wrong choice in the first place(eyes covered with stamp or whatever it is), but i'm glad I had already paid for the consequences, I've received closure and recovered long ago. I mean like yah, wth is love anyway. And yes, i'm really happy/relieve/over the moon that I made a right move to end the mistake and to make up to myself. (inserts happy face)

And yah, please don't think you know what i'm talking about and start another topic cause you won't know what I really mean unless you understand me. But the problem is, no one understands me. Well maybe some, but i'm sure you don't. I don't even understand myself at times.

PS. I love biatching with Mj/Sy/Py/Joy/Siying-li {: They are real cool people haha (L) them like crazy!

And thanks, cause when everyone's telling me to work hard and study more, you're the only one who asked me to rest cause you know that I needed a break. I know I may be such a rush at times, thankyou for slowing me down <3

We kiss we make up;

2009-01-24T09:35:00.000-08:00

Shopping and bitching can relieve stress, trust me baby. HAHA have been bitching with my girlfriends lately wheee I love it man. Went shopping with my daddy and mommy today and I bought 3 dresses, a belt and a top omg should I get that Aldo bag? Yes? No? Yes? Must be yes right, haha okay I think i'm gonna get it coolios. I don't feel the cny mood at all damn it, except for the 'shopping for new clothes' part, and yepp, am looking forward to meeting cousins, nice food and angpows :D Anw, went to ede's house to celebrate her birthday ytd, hope you had a good time yah, although it's kinda late haha ytd was really fun. But yeah, in the morning it wasn't really good, was feeling damn bad/guilty/sad/worried/helpless. Four years of classmates I really don't want anything to happen to you. I hate this kind of feeling man. But yah just wanna tell you that we will be there for you, though yeah we may not be of much help but at least we can listen to whatever you wanna say and yes if things are really that bad we can all cry together and stand up again. Life goes on no matter what right? So yes let's all be strong, I believe you can do it too. Gosh, I really love 201-ers and 403-ers, for staying there just to help out, hoping that everything will be fine. Very very touched. And thanks for everyone who asked. Shit, I think I need a hug now.

Anw went over to girlfriend's just now to get my psp whooo love you baby thankyou :D Was talking about what to wear for cny, tube or normal dress? HAHA I think normal better la gf! Met huimin and gave her her very belated birthday present. Take good care of it yeah :D And joychow that black pig's gonna study with us yay i'm seriously very very happy man. Black brother let's work hard tgt and get good results then maybe enter the same jc yes? Gosh, that would be way too cooooool! Love you love you love you{: And yah, I'm gonna work super hard for my o's I don't wanna let anybody down I don't wanna let myself down. HAHA and thanks yijun for helping me you're really damn nice man thanks thanks thanks:D Damn, I dread school and sjab tml, seriously stress man. Howwwwwwww.

Way back into love;

2009-01-17T07:49:00.000-08:00

Changing my blogskin soon when I have the time. Back from oc, super tired. Haha anw love careforce alot and basketball is really fun HAHA thanks la keean/zhengyang/benedict for teaching us and 'rang-ing' us i know we're slow. Match again next time HAHA.

Seriously, I really don't understand what's going through your mind, what does it takes to make you learn how to love.

Keep moving on;

2009-01-11T04:01:00.000-08:00

Hey there. Gosh, it seriously sucks to be sick, I kinda missed one whole week of school, have to catch up with many things. But yah at least I got more time alone to think through stuff. Sent my brother to NS on friday and suddenly realised that we had really grown up, not that two lil kids anymore. Yes, i'm sixteen, certainly sounds like a four-letter-word to me. I think I dont like sixteen, hate the stress that is coming from o'lvls, hate leaving my friends when school ends. But, I think I like sixteen too, being older gives you more rights, like to do more nc16 stuff, get more hold of my life and perhaps do what I like, more matured. Whatsoever, I've come out with this year's goals/aims and motto. I'm gonna make 2009 great with no regrets.

1) L1R5 below 8 for o'levels. ( I know I can do it if i want, and yes i want that 8 points badly)
2) Spent more time with my family, cherish them and love them more.
3) Get a clearer view of who my true and close friends are (like rena, joychow, minjiepeiyingshinyiretardedmarias, zhiyuncheyennehuimin, 3906), love them more.
4) I think I don't need a boyfriend at this point of my life, gonna save the heartache. Friends are better.
5) Learn how to be independent, don't rely on anybody and not to be so emotional. Stop crying everytime alone.

Okay finished :D I like my goals for this year hahaha. Anw motto for 2009

Be happy, keep moving on keep holding on. I will be fine (:

Anyway i seriously miss my brother like crazy, i'm going insane. No, not that kind of relationship whereby I start to cherish only when he's not around. I've love him for fifteen years of my life, now going on to sixteen. I want you to be with me when i'm going through one of the hardest period in my life, i need you. Come back soon will ya, I love you.

Define love;

2008-12-31T03:37:00.001-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR! :D
And yepp, just keep moving on{:

All the wrong things for all the right reasons;

2008-12-28T05:44:00.000-08:00

It's like i'm still here, but you're not anymore.

Truth be told I'm lying

2008-12-20T01:35:00.000-08:00

17th'dec

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOYCHOWBROTHEEER! :D

Sorry i didn't use my comp until now, anywayzx everything's in the letter already. Glad that you like your presents and cookies!

Love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you. Happy 15th birthday brother {:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY REUVEN!:D

HAHA love you girlfriend, thanks for always being there ya.

And yes silly, thank for the bag, friends forever (:

Welcome to my life

2008-12-11T23:38:00.001-08:00

Lj or blogger(Locked)? Kay think its gonna be lj cozxz at least i can choose which post to lock, that's better right? Anywayyy, I feel like drinking again but I have to wait till my brother's home. I want to drink i want to drink i want to drink ammmm in a bad mood now :/

If you're over me, I'm already over you
If it's all been done, what is left to do?
How can you hang up if the line is dead?
If you wanna walk, I'm a step ahead
If you're moving on, I'm already gone
If the light is off, then it isn't on
At least not today, not today, not today,
Cause'

If it's over, let it go, and,
Come tomorrow it will seem
So yesterday, so yesterday,
I'm just a bird, that's already flown away

Laugh it off, and, let it go, and,
When you wake up it will seem
So yesterday, so yesterday,
Haven't you heard, you're so yesterday so yesterday
I'm just a bird that's already flown away,
Laugh it off, and, let it go, and,
When you wake up it will seem
So yesterday, so yesterday,
Haven't you heard that I'm gonna be okay.

Homie, lover, and friend.

2008-12-08T00:48:00.000-08:00

Hellooow people! This shall be a short peekture post, and btwww joy tell me if you're online i wanna talk to yoooooooou. Super nice talking to girlf too, thanks for everything love.

Miss you many bestie sorry cant meet you today, meet soon yep. HAHA and its nice talking to you Chuazhanteng, CONGRATS BEST CADET! Love you my favourite junior!
HAHA love you silly, friends forever! :D

Hope it gives you hell; then give me hell too

2008-12-05T01:39:00.000-08:00

Talked to brother, talked to joy, talked to kl. Feeling a lil better now. But i still think that this sucks alot :/

"No, no. You're not in the wrong. You're just down right stupid."
I know, i know. Love you brother.

Mommy don't want me already ):

2008-12-02T02:02:00.000-08:00

Updating for my silly friend (:

Anw, ytd ten brothers last episode alr, the ending's kinda sad. Love hongkong shows :D

So tml's out to town, thurs meeting shin, sat sjab and 303 bbq in the evening. Omg i miss shin alot i wanna hurry meet her!

And i'm still having cold war with mommy, she refused to speak to me ):):): omg this sucks like hell :/

Get well soon joy, omg how can you be sick? love you love you

I NEED FOOD NOWWWWWW!

Hey friend;

2008-12-01T00:18:00.000-08:00

Have you ever miss a friend?

):

Seriously, how did we end up in such a situation? Y'know, like what ___ once told me, that's life. You will always lose someone you love but you will gain someone else again. But you're one of those that I cherish and never ever wanna lose. I missed those times when we would talk about everything, when I could just run to you when i'm sad or tired. Perhaps we just need a break, to find out what's wrong. But hey I want you to know that I really love you, and i miss you alot.

Cause people got me got me questioning, where is the love?

Anw, thanks joychow haha and happy december, the month of joy! (: Thanks for everything, love you.

Where is the love, yo

2008-11-30T00:42:00.000-08:00

Yesterday's screwed :/ Ran out of house to meet girlf. Thanks for your card and jellies, and sis's brownies :D

Chatted with bro about many things and was damn shocked HAHA, like when he told me _&_ broke up/ _&_ fought over _. :O

Anwwwww, i'm gonna miss leeshin alot ): ( lol i wanna post picture but blogger's always failing me) Super long nvr see her alr i wanna hug you now ):

Watched koizora again, think think think again. I think joy's right, I think too much and always runaway. Nevertheless, i love you joy. Were you happy then? Like you, I was once happy.

It just ain't the same, always unchanged
New days are strange, is the world insane
If love and peace is so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don't belong

Lucky you left love behind;

2008-11-27T07:37:00.000-08:00

HAHA well, I shall do a short update for kl (: Lol i wanna own a liverpool jersey, its coooooooool. Liverpool rocks forever :D

HAHA kayy I'm super super happy now cozz my dad and mom actually bought whisky for me, i mean, which parent will buy alcohol for their underage daughter just because she wanna have a taste of hang-over? Alright, although my dad don't allow Vodka cause he's sure that i will puke all around the house :/ Omg still, i love them very muchie much ^^

Tml's out, to get my pay with girlf and shopping with mom haha. Anw i think i'm gonna lock my blog pretty soon.

Byee people.

When you said nothing at all;

2008-11-19T01:10:00.000-08:00

Have you ever felt so bad before? Felt like there's no more reason to live on, to hold on, to move on? Regretted the very moment after you had done something, or simply hope that you weren't there in the first place? Waking up in the middle of the night just to find that you've been crying again, staying hours in front of the tv but nothing goes into your mind. It's really tired to keep the smile up there, acting happy, acting strong.

Thanks joychow, thanks girlf, don't worry i'm alright (: Will update some time soon. Anw bestfriend when's our date huh. And should I go to work on fri? Oh yah and I feel like playing with rubber duckky again HAHA

I'm sorry, cause I think I just kinda lose the touch again. Hey where's the love, yo.

Where's the way out;

2008-11-06T01:32:00.000-08:00

Wrong, so wrong. I don't see any way out.

They say if you love something let it go, if it comes back, it's yours.

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer;

2008-10-29T05:00:00.000-07:00

Peektures! HAHA from 303, 201(miss ya guys like hell), god-daughter, ede's hse, zhongqiujie+joylim, nerds, joyjoybrotheeeeeer.

Okayyyy so after schooling/working/playing I shall now concentrate on my o'lvl chinese and trytrytry to score an A so i can show off to my brother(real one). And furthermore considering the fact that I totally flunk my oral (by refering poly to jc and jc to poly like totally wth I don't know their actual names in chinese :/), I need to put in more more more effort to do more zhuowens/li jie wen da/zhong he tian kong to make up for that A. HAHA so bye people i'm off for some intense chinesssseee. Oh yah and I loveee you phoney don't die on me pleaseeeeee. Wthhh, I just gave up 2 days of work for chinese, so chinese chinese you better dont make me regret choosing you over money(cash cash $.$) kay. Crap, I want milooooooooo.

JOYCHOW YOU BETTER STUDY YOUR CHINESE AH IF NOT I KILL YOU! Siying-li must study also! LOVE GIRLF! LOVE PEIYING! LOVE SHINYI! LOVE CHAR! LOVE CARINE! LOVE KAHGHIM! LOVE SHIMIN! LOVE JIAYIN! LOVE FONGTING! LOVE GUOWEI! LOVE NICOLE! LOVE JOHNBRO! GOODLUCK FOR CHINESE!

HAHA did chinessse today and I got very bored cause apparently my whole brain's on britney's womanizer (Womanizer, woman-womanizer, you're a womanizer) haha its super addictive. Oh and i re-created a neopets account whooo and my darling petpet, miloojubjub is super duper ultra cute omggg. Created an account for that black pig too and shes gonna play neopets with me yay love ya. So tml's chinese-neopets-chinese!

Me/girlf/peiying/shin/joyjoy/siying/ws/limyun/siva/xinyi met Qiuqiu (Omgodd QQ is very very very cutee! hahahahaha) at Taman Jurong mac (hee thx joyjoy&siying-li) for chinese! Damn hardcore, from 11-5, which means 6 hours of chinese :/ I am dead beat nowww i want to sleeep. HAHA anw i think siying-li and those photos are very funny! Hmmm shall not play neopets if not black pig will say unfair. Okiezzz bye i go talk to joyjoy!

Lol why on earth must there be zhong he tian kong? So difficult can, I do every passage also need to check the dictionary like totally wthhh damn irritating and theres still like 10 passages left. I dont like zhong he tian kong, I want to get A1 don't want to let qiuqiu down ): Haha anw, LOVE BROTHEEER LOVE SIYING-LI LOVE MILOOJUBJUB LOVE CHOCOOJUBJUB LOVE CHICKENNUGGETBANANA!

Happy birthday kahlun! :D (3/11) Happy birthday yoketing! :D (4/11) HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEARESTNICOLE! (everything's in the text) :D Happy birthday joylim! :D I miss bestfriend alot, hurry come back laaa. Shall praypraypray that tml's bao zhang bao dao will be easy i don't want to die. Where have you been? Damn it.

O's chinese is finally over. I think its pretty okay, shall hope for the best. (:

Anw, have a good trip shin/ghim/carine/jiayin (: Will miss you guys, see you tomorrow!

GORGOR GOODLUCK FOR YOUR A'LVLS TML I LOVE YOU VERYVERY MUCHIE YOU CAN DO IT, GET GOOD RESULTS SO YOU CAN SHOW OFF TO ME! SHALL TREAT YOU LIKE A KING THESE FEW DAYS DON'T THINK TOO MUCH OF OTHER STUPID STUFF JUST THINK OF YOUR PAPERS KAY. GO KILL THEM ALL GOGOGO! :D Goodluck too to minshan/peiying's gor/charmaine's sis!

Looking for a way out, maybe there's a way out.

Hot shot hot shot hot shot

2008-10-19T07:40:00.000-07:00

My new love interest.

Heyhey joyjoy cheerup yeah i love you seriously i love you hell lot. and huimin too lovelovelove <3

Anw went to work ytd with brotheeeeeer at tj's there. Quite fun HAHA tj's mum very nice and his brother damn cute :D Lol afterthat met py and yijun then went to lot1 and met mj. And whoooo i found another job againnnn thanks clara :D:D:D jobjobjob

Oh and yah, -.- dont always think you know someone cause in fact you dont know at all. and it sucks :/

I will miss nicklee and looxiaoyi! Do what you think is right and don't regret after that. Jiayou (:

Edit.

Worked ytd and damn it la earn 4 bucks only. come visit! haha love ya brotheeeer cheerup kay! anw i need textbooks lol.

feeling of lost

I MISS YOU;

2008-10-14T23:03:00.001-07:00

I think I like nanhua now. Okay im gonna cherish my 1 year left in nanhua. Study hard for your o's :D

Part-time lover;

2008-09-26T03:29:00.000-07:00

I love you, bestfriend.

Anw, will not drop by till i get my freedom back. Byebye bloggie, mommy will miss you.

ANFIELD ANFIELD ANFIELD

2008-09-13T06:44:00.000-07:00

I AM A HAPPY GIRL CAUSE LIVERPOOL WON YES THEY WON OMG I LOVE THEM! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D

What about now;

2008-09-07T07:14:00.001-07:00

<3> 20107

<3> minjie,peiying,shinyi

<3> joychowbrother :D

Off for some lone time. Will blog soon.

Shadows fill an empty heart;

2008-08-25T06:06:00.000-07:00

I swear i'm gonna work even harder for eoys to get the results I want. I SWEAR I SWEAR I SWEAR.

This time, my heart choose to give up on you. If I could, I would've leave. Just one year plus to go, girl, hold on. Ice milo seriously helps alot <3

Make of it what you will;

2008-08-24T03:35:00.000-07:00

When you have been with that someone for so long, they become the glove compartment map that you've worn dog-eared and white-creased, the trail you recognize so well you could draw it by heart and for this very reason keep it with you on journeys at all times. And yet, when you least expect it, one day you open your eyes and there is an unfamiliar turnoff, a vantage point that wasn't there before, and you have to stop and wonder if maybe this landmark isn't new at all, but rather something you have missed all along.

I love this weekend, did nothing except for lazing around. Finished my sister's keeper, it really got me thinking alot and i goddamnit enjoy this kind of thinking process. When you love someone, you'll do anything you can to keep them with you. However, there is also a point when you have to step back and say that it's time to let go. Jodi Picoult's a bomb, seriously, haha i wannna collect all her books. Anway results for commons are okay, at least I met my target and managed to half my L1R5 as compared to my midyears. Just have to keep trying for the better :D Signing off to eat my greenbeans, bye people.

I do remember feeling as if something had gone missing, as if the loss of a kid's hero worship can ache like a phantom limb.

My SUPERHERO;

2008-08-20T01:57:00.000-07:00

I seriously don't mind waiting for another 4 years just to see him run again. Jiayou Liu Xiang! Believe in him, with love, <3

Proud Proud Proud;

2008-08-16T01:23:00.000-07:00

SINGAPORE WON! WHOOO:D

Move on;

2008-08-10T05:13:00.000-07:00

I AM A NERD.

Goodbye;

2008-07-26T21:46:00.000-07:00

Rest in peace (: I will cherish (:
Girlfriend's back!
And happy belated birthday xueli, omg meet up soon i miss you loads, love! <3

Can you see what I see;

2008-07-23T00:37:00.000-07:00

I MISS GIRLFRIEND ALOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT ):

Anyway, can the person who took my history textbook please kindly return it back to me? I NEED IT.

I believe in the Legend;

2008-07-14T03:27:00.000-07:00

I love this show I love this show I love this show like crazy. Holy shit, seriously addicted to it.
Please study history please study history hey wongliling you gotta study history.
And omg wake up, o'lvl chinese listening's tomorrowwwwwwwww!

Something's just about to break;

2008-07-10T04:09:00.000-07:00

One. I like volley! Its damn fun wheeee peiying promised to train with me yay love ya{:
Two. I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND NEOBULAN WHOOOOO <3
Three. I love shin too I wanna see you at wushu :D
Four. Brother saw his future father-in-law today and got damn nervous HAHA
Five. Qin ai de nevermind dont bother about the posting :D
Six. Angelinagu's sitting with gf and I yayy fun :D
Seven. I miss char and ghim i dont like 304 being there D:
Eight. Weinan and I dont like ________ ok kidding!
Nine. I think shenyong's surname's very very super duper nice{:
Ten. Okay i think im crapping too much bye people

When you need a friend;

2008-07-08T03:08:00.000-07:00

I see my life
Flash across the sky
So many times that I've been so afraid
And just when I
Have thought I'd lost my way
You give me strength to carry on
That's when I heard you say

DAMN IT.

Can somebody just tell me, what's wrong? Cause i seriously feel so stupid like a fool worrying and wondering what had happened and gone wrong. I'm sick and tired of acting happy and fine, this sucks alot, y know.

I'm putting my heart out on display

2008-07-07T01:18:00.000-07:00

I love you guys <3

Something's wrong, but i really don't know what it is. Cheerup, please.

Masquerade, just a funeral march for love today

2008-06-30T03:24:00.000-07:00

Went for flagday and ndp'08 preview with girlfriend, peiying, shin, cheyenne, yijun, joce, jiayi, brother, nicole, zijing, waihoong, darren and kangwei, super duper niceeeee. Went to find qin ai de wheeee i love you like crazy! :D haha took photos with jinghui and yilin, keep finding nanhua dance omg we scream like crazy really love ndp! Saw WONGGGY and zihan too :D Miss ndp'06 like hell i really don't know what to say. I want photos!

Please donate to S.P.C.A! Joce see how heavy our tin is wheeee damn happppy :D

Hey you, heart-breaker

2008-06-29T05:04:00.001-07:00

Seriously, conferencing's addictive. And I love talks alot, haha today's conversation with peiying's really good{:

Please, what else is on

2008-06-28T07:59:00.000-07:00

Omg y know, i seriously miss my primary school days/ sec 1 and 2 days. This sucks alot.

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What would you do if you knew;

2008-06-27T05:01:00.000-07:00

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
It's something more than saying "I miss you"
But when we talked too
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye

Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
That you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandfather
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

JUST TRYING OUT

2008-06-21T08:38:00.000-07:00

Hey you sexy!
Okay nothing much to say except,
I LOVE SEC3ADVENTURECAMPUGGROUPBUSONE! <3
And yes, BB GUYS ARE REALLY DAMN IT NICE ALRIGHT :D

sexy right, total ownage whoooo{: i love you guys manymany. But i seriously seriously seriously miss retardedmarias and 303 alot laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ): boooooooooooooo *pout pout pout pout pout*